I wonder why?

I do not understand why but I still am not able to calm down as I wish to. Well, there is a huge improvement from who I was in 2007, but I am still not there. There are sudden outbursts, and then there are times when I keep silent. I am just unable to strike that balance. There are reasons beyond explanation that make my mood go south.

I remember reading a while back:

Anything that makes you weak physically, intellectually and spiritually, reject as poison. There is no life in it…it can not be true…truth is strengthening. Truth is purity. Truth is all knowledge. Truth must be strengthening, must be enlightening, must be invigorating.

Lie to yourself?

There are 2 types of lies – positive and negative. Your job is simple – find out which ones are you telling yourself everyday.

Positive lies are based on the way how you want yourself to be. This is how you tune your subconscious mind and soon this becomes a habit. The good thing is that as this is a habit, you achieve that you lied yourself about

Negative lies are the ones where you just can not take blame of your mistakes. You will find every reason to blame someone for what went wrong with your life or for where you are today. It is very easy to do this as takes all responsibility off your back (you feel this way).

Important is to know what type of a liar are you?