God, maintains a balance scorecard for us. It all starts with a ZERO (0) at some point in time. As we live our life, we are provided with choices - some of those choices are right and other are wrong (how is another topic I will cover later; lets assume to be right an wrong for this conversation). We have to decide what we would do in such a scenario. Based on our decisions, we are awarded points or points are taken away from us. Now, when we go t God and pray for something, or want something in our life, God sees what is our Scorecard and gives is what we deserve. We either get what we asked for or we don't or we get something in between; but all that is based on what our scorecard is at that time. Once we have been awarded, our scores neutralizes back - it is like earning "Game Points" and spending those in the game for powers to do bigger things.
why does responsibility changes with the cost of the object. Thinking more deeply into the subject, I realize that it is not just the cost of the object - it is linked to the value of object for the owner. However, many a times we assume the value of the object based on how we value objects in our life. How many times have you considered an anniversary card that you received as just a card and misplaces it and not thinking that it valued so much to the person who gifted you; more so misplaced a present/card that someone else received because you dont value care of the ones you receive. Do we care enough to ask the person if it is okay to let the thing be ask them of their opinion of the object and its value (not monitory, but importance) for them and then decide how we should make amends if anything should happen to it.
I want to carry on with my life believing that God is going keep a watch over me as He has done in the past and He is going to do the same for my family too. I will just go about doing my stuff and try to do the right thing. I will try to choose my purpose and make people around me happy. Rest I will leave to God. He has brought us to existence and He will do what is best for us. Death is just another way of tempting me to let go of my Faith, but I will not. I will not stop doing what I am should do (Karma), and I will do it using my best judgement. God will judge me for my actions.
I have had doubts if this I should share this thought and what is the right way to share these thoughts with my parents, siblings, wife and children. So, after thinking for a long time, I am going to publish this post, because this is the easiest way for them to know what I believe in and what I have gone through for last 2 years. This is the best way for me to pass on my Faith to them especially in times when God is testing us. I just want everyone to know that I don't think of death all the time, and I want to be around to fulfill my purpose of a son, a brother, a husband and a father. But, based upon my actions God will decide when I have served my purpose. And to let you know, as I end this post, I feel much lighter that I was a while ago. I know now, that I need to fix a few things in my life and do it while I have the time.
This is not the first time that things have happened around me that I can not explain. While I have a strong belief in the fact that the choices we make are the basis of what happens with us; there are several times where I just can't explain why it happend. I am still trying to understand the events and decipher the reasons behind all of it. I will not be able to decipher any of that until next few days till the time I reach home safely and I am with my family or till the time I get my bags. The question arises at the point when all of it has happened as it was supposed to happen - "Why did it all happened in a different manner if the end result was the same?". Unless, something changes during next 36-40 hours.
I just dont know how to think on this. I just am blank on this. I just feel - that things happen for a reason and that too a good one. Few more hours to find the reason behind all this and realize what was good in that.
How we feel is something that we cant control - or at least not at the very beginning. We may be able to over a period of time to control our emotions, but when something happens at that point how you feel tells you who you are what the other person means to you. Friendship is one such thing.
So, now when I hear about a "friend", and my first emotion is not to be happy for them, I know it is not friendship. I just know - I don't understand why I was not remembered; how come I am not remembered every time. I know it is time to let go. I know we are not friends any more, we are just "ex-colleagues".
Faith isn't an Argument; I just know God exists and he is out there for me.
So, when people ask me to prove to them Who is God and Where is your God or why did God do something - I do not know how to answer. I just know it in my heart that He is out there somewhere watching me and providing me with opportunities to do good things. He is out there paving my path with temptations but trusts me to do the right thing.
I think that selfless deeds dont matt, what really maters is that the deeds are good. If the world van see beyond the selfish ir selfless side of a person, it would be a much beter place to live in.
Well this has me confused - It is also said - "you can choose your own destiny". If Destiny does exists, then no matter what I choose to do throughout my life, all those actions nonetheless lead me to a very predetermined destiny. So where is my free will? So why do I struggle everyday with all those decisions that I make? Why do I even exist as a puppet?
Another quote and one of my favorites: “The secret of life is to appreciate the pleasure of being terribly, terribly deceived.” And I am thinking – can one get pleasure in that? Did that ever happen to me?. It is a secret because we dont know how can you pleasure in such a thing 🙂…
"Live life as if there is a tomorrow. As if, there are going to be many tomorrows."
"You will get hit by a bus and you wont know what hit you. Live life as if there is no tomorrow."