Miserable – why not?

miserable-baby-cryingDr. House MD is one of my favorite tv shows – one that I can watch over and over and over. It’s a fiction but the life lessons one can learn from that show can flip you head over heels.

House as a personality is about making everyone miserable and doing what he feels right. He has a pressing need to solve puzzles. And nothing else matters to him. In season 3, House’s entire team quits (he fires 1 of them) – just because everyone needed a change. House kicks off Season 4 with interviewing 40 people over a period of 6 weeks to decide who will be the next 3 people in his team. Season 4 is one of the best episodes and how House deals with change.

Last night’s episode he quotes:

You’re going to be miserable, at home, at work, somewhere. The goal in life is not to eliminate misery, it’s to keep misery to the minimum.

Someone’s going to be miserable sometime. Accept it. It’s how I stay so happy.

Around you people have needs to do things that way they believe is the right. Thats the prime reason why anyone would something (another of his quotes). When I walk into interactions (personal or official) every single person wants to solve for something. That something is their pressing need. It may not be my pressing need, hell it maybe nothing that I want to deal with at all. Yes, combined set of goals that you sign up with your team is critical and you cant let the ball drop but you can decide how much you should engage.

You can choose to engage everyone or you can let go and do what matters (maybe not now) – something that leads to a bigger impact later on.

End of the day – it’s a decision you have to make. What will make you “miserable enough” to be happy and going on to do what you want to do. Sometimes to get what you want, you have to give. Find that alternate.

So let’s be a bit miserable 🙂

 

 

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Freedom vs. responsibility

I came across this crisp post from Seth, which i am quoting below.Freedom vs. responsibility

Freedom and responsibility

 

Which do you want?

 

Freedom is the ability to set your schedule, to decide on the work you do, to make decisions.

 

Responsibility is being held accountable for your actions. It might involve figuring out how to get paid for your work, owning your mistakes or having others count on you.

 

Freedom without responsibility is certainly tempting, but there are few people who will give you that gig and take care of you and take responsibility for your work as well.

 

Responsibility without freedom is stressful. There are plenty of jobs in this line of work, just as there are countless jobs where you have neither freedom nor responsibility. These are good jobs to walk away from.

 

When in doubt, when you’re stuck, when you’re seeking more freedom, the surest long-term route is to take more responsibility.

 

Freedom and responsibility aren’t given, they’re taken.

So next time when you aren’t happy with what you are doing, waking up in morning and going to office is a drag; it’s either:

  • You are the one Who is Giving someone Freedom without holding them responsible for their actions or;
  • You are the one Who isn’t taking Freedom but taking all responsibility or;
  • You aren’t walking away from these stressful jobs.

 

Several WTFs per minute

After a few years (sort) of lull, my weekly working hours have started to spike. Just last perfection isweek, I ended up working 36 hours straight and in office. It’s been a while when I did an all-nighter. While my reason to spend the night in office working was something very different, the night went very different. I was going several WTFs per minute but in the end, when there was dawn I had built a solution that I know will last for long and will make sure that some of my team members won’t be spending their nights trying to solve for the problem. It has been a while since I went that deep on a project, but it was fun – I didn’t even realize how time flew by.

We all have our own definition of perfection… next time we should probably stop and ask what is clients’ definition.

Over the weekend, I was thinking what could we have done differently to avoid this situation. In hind-sight I had 10 ideas of how this could have been avoided. The more fundamental message is not those 10 ideas or the fact that I can still work 36 hours non-stop. The fact is that we completely miss the essence of what is needed. This is just one of several project that I have been on where the focus is on getting “features delivered”. Clients wants us to get stuff done because there are business drivers – someone has committed a vision to someone else; there is paid media that needs certain features to be delivered. Hence, we pick up and run with it and deliver stuff.

Step back a minute and ask how do doctors work – when there are planned and un-planned surgeries. Do they cut corners, do they say “we need this get done for a lower price – so lets not spend time stitching the patient properly and save 1 hour of Operation Theater time and save some money for patient”. It costs what it costs – there is only one way to do it.

Then think where they really spend the meat of the time. I still recall when my wife was in labor with my second kid, the actual operating time was about 20 minutes. She was gone for almost 90 minutes but 70 minutes of that was prepping her for the surgery and then keeping her in post-op. thats more than 2/3rd of the time spent in making sure that 20 minutes that were critical were flawless and she is in no danger. They didn’t start until everything was perfect and she wasn’t back in room until they were sure she was stabilized. My kid was in Neonatal ICU for 48 hours – not because he was ill but because doctors wanted to make sure that he got the best care and was free of any infection in the hours when he was most vulnerable.

Only if we would spend 50% of time (not 70%) in before and after coding, we would have much better products. Yet, we choose to dive into implementations off of the bat, and we put things for later. We all have our own definition of perfection… next time we should probably stop and ask what is clients’ definition.

 

I am Sorry, I was Angry

I am kobe

 

Last few years, I have been angry at something, mostly it was about trying to do things in the best possible way (or when things won’t happen like that). now I am simply tired of explaining to everyone what perfect is!!

Stacy: “I had to do what I thought was right”.
House: “It’s the only reason anyone does anything”.

If I can’t really change what people believe is right, what’s the point in being angry at. Best, I can accept because then I can use that energy and channel it into building what’s right.

I won’t change in a day, but need to find a way to get the message right or reset my expectation “forever”. Maybe I will get down and do the work instead of being a…

 

I drive my car best, when I am not Driving

muscle_memory_bodybuildersI was talking to my team over the weekend and I observed a behavior. I went about thinking how best can I explain to them what I observed and the analogy I could up with me led me to think how I have learned to drive over the years.

It’s almost like I am not driving.

I have been driving a car for almost 2 decades now, and I drive my best when I can make impossible turns and overtake people when I am not thinking about driving at all. All of that is possible because of the muscle memory that I have built over time for my driving skills. Now when I am on road, i dont have to think if my car would fit in there, what speeds i need to be driving at, or what the other person will do when I overtake from one side or dive in a lane… all those just happen. It’s almost like I am not driving.

I reflect back on everything I do and I can easily co-relate that anytime I have spend time and effort in doing something over and over again, I reach a point when I have things committed to my muscle memory and I do not have to try hard. Thats how I have been working in my career and coding just like that. I have reached to a point that when I have to think too much I struggle with ideas and when I am not thinking too much or my first instincts/questions are on point. What this means is that when I see a curve ball being thrown at me, I don’t necessarily have a process which i fall back to – I rely on my instincts to decide what I do.

2015 in Retrospect

2016 has already started and first 12 days for me in 2-16 were vacationing with family inhttps://www.eusa.ed.ac.uk/societies/society/retrospect/
Dubai which meant that 2016 is already starting on an awesome note. While I loved the beginning, I wanted to do some retrospection on 2015 and follow it up with what I’d like to achieve in 2016. New Year’s haven’t been a good start for me since 2012. And while I couldn’t have asked for a better beginning I want to make the most of this positive beginning.

 

Start of 2015 was probably my all time low in last few years when I was struggling to find things I wanted to do. I knew what I wanted but the opportunities were limited. I was supposed to be leading several projects but it didn’t pan out so well. Starting In February, I

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Abeer on his 1st birthday

was hit with a bad knee injury (still don’t know what caused it), but it basically forced me to rest for almost 8 weeks. April 24th was Abeer’s 1st birthday and it was a joyous time. He grew faster than I could imagine and I still remember that day so vividly.

 

I did start the year using my time @ home by playing Destiny a lot. by the time it was June-july, I started to realize that this past-time PS4 game was becoming more of an addiction which was affecting everything around me. After investing 1344 hours in the game, i decided it was time to let go and around October of 2015 I stopped playing the game for good. It was good while it lasted and i did make some good friends online.

 

On professional front, work wasn’t that great for first few months and also my health wasn’t helping. In May I joined a big account where the ask was to re-platform an existing product in CPG domain. I was tasked to lead the effort as the Solution Architect and by June 30th we had proven out the 3 key use cases that were key for the client’s success. 2015 finished on a high as the platform went live as per schedule on Nov 2nd and we were able to do a couple of releases since then. http://dove.com/in is just the start of what this platform will be. The creative team (again from Publicis.Sapient) did a great job with front-end designs on for Dove and we used SapientNitro’s IEA which made this a reality.

 

On personal growth front, I didn’t do exactly what I wanted to, and there were ample disappointments along the way. However, I did grow as a person overall. I did learn to be a more patient with things around me and was able to take out time and draw out perspectives which helped me in a big way in making some key decisions. And I am confident that in 2016, this will help me immensely as to how I will drive things froward.

A good bye note which made me feel proud

One of my colleagues left my organization and moved on to do bigger things in his life. While there have been a lot of GoodBye emails in past, this is the first time that someone took time to write to me a personal good bye/thank you note. This is what he had to say and it felt proud that I made a difference.

As you may already be aware that I have decided to move on in my career in search for a more exciting career opportunity. I am writing this email to you, to say goodbye and thank you for your support during our stint together in RIC.

Our first correspondence happened during the AEM training delivered by you and your team and believe me, I was left in awe. It gave me a clear indication of the great leadership that Sapient has. With you moving in to lead the RIC account, I got another great opportunity to learn from you. I always looked forward to our technical discussions, because they helped me shape the approach that I should have while solving a problem.

Seldom in our lives, we meet people who we can call ‘Influencers’. They impact your lives (professionally or personally) in a lot of ways and I can safely say that you have been an influencer for me. In many ways, you are an inspiration for me and have shown me a clear direction to move my career. I hope one day, I can be half as good as you are. I deeply admire, not only your technical but also your leadership skills. The only thing that is constant in life is change, but the memories of working with an inspirational person like you would never go.

I hope I get another chance to work with you in future, after all it’s a very small world.